It’s starting to snow……go figure. On the day of Matthew’s funeral, it snowed more than it had ever snowed before in Laramie, Wyoming.
We had about a 7-hour rehearsal yesterday. The excitement of rehearsing with lights and music greatly notched it to another level. For all those who have performed on stage, you know exactly what I’m talking about here. Yes, I’m back at Queen Street Commons Café, whic as you know, tended to be from where I have done most of my writing for this blog.
My next project to take on for myself is to hopefully create a full-length production of the “NUTCRACKER”. I have always wanted to create a work of my own and utilize our local talents. This will, however, be an unusual version of this magnificent and magical masterpiece. I wish to name this version the “Drag Queen Nutcracker”, which I hope will create its own magic and sincerity. We have a wonderful individual who represents our community, and has for many years showcased his/her talents in creating diversity and charisma. Brad, or Miss Drew as she is known in the drag community, provides strength and courage to so many believers. Although I still have to approach him for confirmation of commitment on this, he is certainly the most appropriate person to be asked initially, as he has shown and proven time and time again his commitment to our community.
Just the other day one of the clients of The AIDS Committee of Cambridge, Kitchener and Waterloo (ACCKWA) came in with her newborn, bouncing baby boy – 6lbs, 2 ozs. His name is Adrian - so cute, and yes I held him like he was my own. In case you’ve forgotten, we were all this tiny at one time - so innocent, full of life, with dreams that were still unfolding in our heads as we slept, easily made to giggle and smile, material objects that made us curious and emotions that grasped our integrity. These are all continuous features as we grow older, until someone steals it all away from us.
I’m so sad to see this show coming to a close soon, both for the commitment I’ve made to do this for myself and the connections I’m making with others in the production. We’re all a continuous development, persuaded by one another.
When an opportunity like this knocks at your door, you either accept the offer or not. I’m very glad I did, and I will always remember the graciousness I feel within to have been chosen for the role of Matthew’s father. The loyalty in his words, the conviction and strength he has portrayed to his family and loved ones, has undoubtedly had a significant impact on whom I have become out of all this. So Dennis……………I am truly sorry this horrific event had to take place, and I wish my portfolio will provide you with some honour and reassurance of whom your loving son Matthew certainly would have become himself, had his own life not been stripped away from him.
We all have been granted life by the powers to be, or however one wishes to look at it. What we do with our lives is our choice. But it’s not our rightful choice to decide a person’s destiny through simply eradicating them from the face of the earth.
There cannot be enough good things to say about Matthew Wayne Shepard with respect to the wonderful son that he was, and the person he would have continued to be through his own internal desire to live. I have to say “Mr McKinney, you had no right to take it upon yourself to make such a decision of power.”
And as Matthew’s Father said again: “May you have a long life, and may you thank Matthew everyday for it”. Your remaining days in prison will undoubtedly provide your own loss with not bringing up or spending your life with your own son. I’m certain you could have been a decent civilized human-being had you not been so arrogant and foolish. I do however, wish all the best for your own son, as your actions will have an impact on who he becomes, unfortunately. (It’s a generation thing I guess?) If I may say: “You felt Matthew was not fit to live on this planet – quite the contrary, you’re not fit to live on this planet. “
Matthew, your legacy is HUGE…………….and memories of the person that you were will live on generation after generation. Remember, in 1998, it was called The Hate Crimes Prevention Act. In 2007, it was re-named The Matthew Shepard Act.
Please Note: I am on a deadline to get these blogs put together and sent off to the Shepard Family, so I will blog in the near future on the outcome of the performances, which begin in only a couple of days from now…………..hope to see you there.
Bye for now…………The Dreamer
Tickets for the “Laramie Project – 10 years later” are only $5. Speak to Deardra or Karen at 519-496-5383 for show details .
Performances run April 25-27 at Sizzle, 135 George Street North, Cambridge. Ontario
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