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John McCullagh

John McCullagh

John McCullagh is the publisher of PositiveLite.com. He's an HIV-positive gay man who’s been active in Toronto's LGBTQ community since immigrating to Canada from his native Britain in 1975. A social worker by profession, he's worked in government and the not-for-profit sector in both front-line and management positions. His experience includes research, policy analysis, strategic planning, program development, project management, and communications. 

In the early years of the AIDS epidemic, John was a counsellor at the Toronto Counselling Centre for Lesbians and Gays (now known as David Kelley Services), an organization he co-founded and which was one of the first agencies in Toronto to offer professional counselling to those infected with and affected by HIV. 

Now retired, John volunteers with the AIDS Committee of Toronto (ACT) and is a board member of CATIE, Canada’s national HIV and Hepatitis C knowledge broker.  

John regularly contributes articles to PositiveLite.com about his personal experiences of living with HIV and about issues relevant to Canada's HIV and LGBTQ communities.

Sep24

Be seen. Be heard. Be remembered

Monday, 24 September 2012 Written by // John McCullagh - Publisher Categories // Art, Arts and Entertainment, Gay Men, Features and Interviews, Health, Living with HIV, Media, Population Specific , John McCullagh

Toronto artist Raymond Helkio, in a video interview with publisher John McCullagh, talks about his graphic design work for PositiveLite.com and about living with HIV.

Be seen. Be heard. Be remembered

Since its inception in 2009, PositiveLite.com has relied on social media and word of mouth to let potential readers know of our existence. And we have been very successful in that regard. However, not everyone uses social media and our experience tells us that there are many Canadians living with HIV who are not familiar with our online HIV magazine. 

To remedy this, we decided that we needed to undertake some promotion of the magazine in more traditional ways, such as displaying posters about our site at places where HIVers are likely to see them - like AIDS service organizations, doctor’s offices, clinics, pharmacies and community centres as well as at workshops, conferences and other special events. 

To this end, we needed a graphic designer. And who better to turn to than Raymond Helkio, who has long applied his artistic skills to benefit charitable and not-for-profit organizations within the HIV and LGBTQ communities. 

Ray is a lively and engaging HIV-positive gay man who not only designed posters and hand-out cards for PositiveLite.com but also consented to my interviewing him both about his graphic design work generally and about his own HIV story. You can see this interview in the eight-minute video below, along with images of the posters he designed for us. 

You can view more examples of Ray’s work on his website http://raymondhelkio.com

Sep06

Sex and party drugs - revisited

Thursday, 06 September 2012 Written by // John McCullagh - Publisher Categories // Gay Men, Health, Sexual Health, Population Specific , John McCullagh

Being a gay or bi guy who manages his drugs and booze and who navigates the realities of HIV, STIs and stigma requires spunk!

Sex and party drugs - revisited

SPUNK! [spuhngk] - noun

a. Courage, spirit, boldness, resilience: Show some spunk.

b. A slang word for semen                    

Being a gay or bi guy requires courage and boldness of spirit - period. Being a gay or bi guy who manages his drugs and booze and who navigates the realities of HIV, STIs and stigma requires spunk! How can we be healthy if we use drugs and alcohol, but are afraid or ashamed to reach out about these things to other guys? 

The AIDS Committee of Toronto (ACT) is again recruiting participants for SPUNK!, a support group for gay, bi, and trans guys of all ages who are dealing with issues around substances, including alcohol. It’s for guys who would like a 100% judgement-free space to talk openly and honestly about drug use, about barebacking, about any of the issues around drugs and alcohol. 

It’s an opportunity for guys to learn strategies and tools to help make the choices they want to make. No one will be pushed or nudged to quit. If you want to decrease your use, or stop using altogether, SPUNK! will support that too. SPUNK! is all about what you desire for yourself. 

This anonymous and closed group is for guys who are HIV-positive, HIV-negative or who don’t know their status. No one will be asked to disclose their status. 

SPUNK! will be starting up again on September 18 and through October in a central downtown Toronto location. It's completely free. 

Some of the things guys are saying about SPUNK!

I don't even talk about this stuff with my dealer...or with the people I party or have sex with.                 

This group has allowed me to voice and process my concerns around drug use. I feel clearer about what is contributing or not to my well being and happiness.

I am more confident about my ability to make the changes important to me!

SPUNK! was a wonderful experience. I am so grateful for the enthusiasm, caring and empathy of the facilitators. I am quite impacted by the power of making affirmative/goal setting statements in a group context.             

My experiences are not unique. I am not alone in these struggles. Discussion/communication is helpful (especially in a group context). Other people's views helped put my thoughts into perspective. 

For more information or to register to participate, email Adam Busch at This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it. or call him at 416-340-8484 ext. 235. 

SPUNK is online at www.actoronto.org/spunk and on Facebook at  www.facebook.com/showsomespunk

Sep04

A message from the Publisher

Tuesday, 04 September 2012 Written by // John McCullagh - Publisher Categories // Launches, Events, Living with HIV, John McCullagh

Publisher John McCullagh writes about some exciting developments that are taking place at PositiveLite.com.

A message from the Publisher

Today, I want to tell you about some exciting developments that are taking place at PositiveLite.com. 

First off, we've made some significant enhancements to the website. We've done this with the help of a new web developer, Make Good Media. We contracted with this small, progressive, Toronto-based company to help us with the technical side of our operations. They are providing a range of solutions for us to upgrade the site, making it more robust and user-friendly. 

On Monday night, we migrated the hosting of the site from our former web hosting company to Make Good Media's servers. There are the inevitable few glitches associated with such a move that we’re working out and I'm confident that they’ll be resolved quickly. However, if, after a few days, you’re still noticing any issues that need addressing, I invite you to email me at This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it. and I’ll pass them on to the people at Make Good Media. 

Among the changes we've made is the installation of a better search engine to make it easier to search for stories and other content on the site. You'll find this new search engine will do a much better job than the previous one in taking you to the content you're looking for. It searches through all the words on the site as well as the tags that appear at the end of each article. 

We've also replaced the software that manages the comment box at the end of each article. As you may have experienced, using the comment system we had up before was sometimes an exercise in frustration as one never knew whether one's comment had been posted successfully or not. The new comment software is more robust and should make it easier and more efficient to use. 

We really want you and others to use the comment feature regularly to let us know what you think about what we publish on PositiveLite.com. You can login to the comment feature via your Facebook, Twitter or Google Plus accounts. Alternatively, you can post a comment as a guest. In that case, you'll be asked to enter an email address. Please be assured that this address will not appear on the site but will only be visible to our editor, Bob Leahy, when he moderates the comments. 

We've also reintroduced an RSS feed of all the new stories on the site. You access this feed through the RSS icon that appears at the top right-hand corner of each page. You'll also notice that we've introduced links to several other social media outlets besides Facebook, Twitter and Google Plus at the end of each article. They include Digg, LinkedIn, Stumbleupon, Reddit and Pinterest. 

Beyond our website, we've enhanced our social media presence over the past few months, particularly on Facebook. If you haven't yet "liked" our Facebook page, I urge you to do so. You'll find us at www.facebook.com/PositiveLiteCom. We post links on our Facebook page to every article that appears on the website. Again, I urge you to "like" those articles that appeal to you and to comment on them too. We want to encourage conversation about what it means to live with HIV, hence our new slogan Join the Conversation. 

We're also very active on Twitter - our handle is @PositiveLiteCom - and tweet about all new posts for six days following publication. If you like an article you’ve read here, I hope you’ll tweet about it or re-tweet ours. 

I trust that these enhancements to PositiveLite.com will make your visits more enjoyable and productive. We have many more developments planned that I believe will be of value to you, whether you’re living with HIV or are supportive of those of us who are. 

This is your website, whether you live in Canada or elsewhere in the world. Please “join the conversation” by letting us know in the comment box below whether we’re meeting your needs and/or how we can improve your online HIV magazine. 

Thank you for being part of the PositiveLite.com community! 

 

Sep04

How to live well with HIV

Tuesday, 04 September 2012 Written by // John McCullagh - Publisher, What's Up Categories // Community Events, As Prevention , Events, General Health, Mental Health, Features and Interviews, Research, Health, Treatment, Living with HIV, John McCullagh

John McCullagh talks with Robin Rhodes of ACT about his agency’s monthly educational workshops for people living with HIV - workshops that are now webcast across Canada and around the world.

How to live well with HIV

For those of us who work or volunteer in the HIV sector, there are often opportunities to attend workshops and conferences about new developments in HIV prevention and treatment and, for those of us living with HIV, on managing our heath in all of its dimensions - physical, emotional and spiritual. For most other HIVers though, such opportunities are not as readily available, due to cost, time, location or inclination.

This is where the Community Health Forums put on by the AIDS Committee of Toronto (ACT) come in. Held seven times a year, these free workshops are accessible not only to HIVers living in the Toronto region but also, because they are webcast, to those living across the country and around the world. 

In order to learn more about these forums, I went to ACT a couple of weeks ago to talk with the program’s coordinator, Robin Rhodes. This charming man, who was born and grew up in Britain, has worked with people living with HIV and AIDS since the beginning of the epidemic. A staff member of ACT for 13 years, Robin oversees a variety of client-centred programs at that organization. Here’s our conversation. 

John McCullagh: Welcome, Robin, to PositiveLite.com. I’d like to start by asking you what exactly are ACT’s Community Health Forums? 

Robin Rhodes: They’re really open workshops for anybody that’s living with HIV to help them to better understand treatment issues and self-care, from a holistic point of view. It’s an educational opportunity, a chance for people to sit, listen, ask questions and learn. 

John: In terms of those who attend, are they primarily people living with HIV or can anyone come? 

Robin: We advertise it as a forum for people living with HIV but people don’t necessarily have to be a client of ACT or of any other ASO. 

John: What’s the experience like, attending one of the forums? 

Robin: They run between six and nine at night and we always offer a free buffet meal to start because it’s a long evening. Another reason to have food available is because some people need to take their medication with food. 

The actual presentations themselves start at seven o’clock. There are usually two speakers. We try to find a specialist, a professional, whatever it may be, who’s an expert in the specific topic being presented and complement that with the second speaker - or first speaker depending on which - who’s somebody living with HIV who’s familiar with or has lived experience of the topic under discussion. Sometimes, both speakers may be people living with HIV. But that’s not necessarily the criterion. The criterion is to offer an exemplary and high-standard presentation around the topic of the evening. We also build in time for questions from those attending. 

John: Do people just come up and ask questions or do they hand them to you in writing? 

Robin: Well, more often than not it’s direct from the floor. But if someone is more comfortable in writing their question down and handing it to me to read, that’s okay.  

John: You hold the forums in an hotel, not at ACT. Why is that? 

Robin: Because it’s a neutral environment. It’s not a space associated with the gay or HIV communities or anything else. Some of those who attend may not be out about their status or not comfortable in coming into an ASO and/or not comfortable asking their doctor questions. So it’s a neutral space that’s accessible to anyone from any walk of life, from any diversity, any background, cultural or otherwise. There’s no registration required either, again to protect anonymity. 

John: Robin, give me some sense of some of the topics that you’ve presented in the past and also your plans for this upcoming year. 

Robin: So we have seven forums a year, from September to March. The topics themselves are pretty broad-based. We try and cover both pure medicine as well as taking a more holistic approach. So for instance, we’ve covered HIV and healthy relationships, we’ve presented on addiction issues, on healthy sexuality (whether with single or multiple partners), the theory of practice of neurocognitive health, HIV drug interactions, HIV drug toxicities, HIV stigma and discrimination, hepatitis A, B and C, co-infection, transmission and treatment, PEP and PrEP. 

John: That’s a very broad spectrum of topics. 

Robin: Yes, it’s a very rich tapestry. 

John: And for this coming year, starting in September? 

Robin: Well John, this coming year we’re broadening the net, as they say. We’re looking into new insights into HIV management strategies for a cure, and will be presenting on the new Canadian HIV pregnancy planning guidelines. We’re going to look in depth at HIV and mental health, the new thinking and the new strategies around mental illness, about optimizing mental health and how that improves compliance with HIV medication and reduces the risk in other activities. And because we’ve just had the world AIDS conference in Washington, we’ll be providing a complete overview of that event and everything it entailed. 

John: That’ll be interesting. 

Robin: Absolutely. And then we’re going to talk about HIV among newcomers to Canada, about cultural diversity issues, getting into the health care system and navigating the system. We’ll also be presenting on the resiliences and challenges of sexually transmitted and opportunistic infections, new and existing STIs, overcoming sexual health challenges. There’s also going to be a session about anal cancer and dysplasia, which we’re noticing is getting more and more prevalent among people living with HIV. And then, finally in this particular series, we’re going to be talking about HIV and fatigue and hormone issues for both men and women and the use of supplements and testosterone and looking at energy levels and how best to manage these.

John: Robin, a wealth of topics there. How do you decide what to present? 

Robin: Well, John, we’re very fortunate in having an amazing advisory committee comprising members of the community, staff and members of ASOs and also the supporting pharmaceutical companies. So we have a wealth of people who provide their input. 

Then at the end of each forum we have an evaluation form on which we ask people what topic they would like to see presented in the future. For our annual series of seven monthly forums, we usually take four of the topics from the evaluation forms while the other three are decided by the advisory committee through the knowledge that they have both professionally and through their work in the communities of areas that people living with HIV may not necessarily be aware of and which we think it would be helpful if they did. 

John: Do the pharmaceutical companies dictate what topics are to be presented? 

Robin: Not at all. They are there as partners to the advisory committee and as sponsors of the forums. They can offer suggestions and they do. They do tend to know what’s coming down the pipeline in terms of research and they can be a great help to me in finding the right speakers. 

John: Is that where the funding for the forums comes from, the drug companies? 

Robin: They do support us, yes, but it’s not the overall funding source by any means. We receive support from a pharmacy as well. And ACT contributes from its own budget. So funding is broad-based.  

John: Now you have a very exciting new development this year, as I understand it, in that you’re going to be televising the forums over the internet. 

Robin: Opening up the forums to participants who, for whatever reason, cannot attend in person has been a dream of mine for a long time. The forums have grown from very small and humble beginnings, with eight or ten or fifteen participants. 

John: What, ten or 14 years ago? 

Robin: Yes, and now we get around 50 attending. But it’s always been my desire to share beyond our city the opportunity for learning that people in centres of HIV excellence such as Toronto, Montréal and Vancouver are able to access. So I spoke with Mark Fisher at the OHTN, who’s the director of IT there, and we tested different webcasting formats. We found one that appeared suitable and, as a result, last year we started webcasting an audio feed of the forums along with showing the powerpoint presentations. There were a few wrinkles at first but, generally speaking, from the feedback we received, it proved to be successful. 

Several people said that, while it was wonderful to hear the speakers and to see the powerpoint, would it be possible to see the presenters as well? So I went back to Mark and we looked at this again and we think we’ve come up with the remedy. We’ve done some testing and it seems to be working. So the new exciting piece is that, in this coming series, people not physically at the forum will be able to see the presenters as well. Albeit in a small box at the side, because we still need to present the powerpoint slides.  

John: That’s a wonderful, exciting addition. 

Robin: Yes, it is. And people viewing via the internet will also be able to anonymously email questions for the presenters to answer. Obviously, we won’t be able to take every question, but it’s another way of reaching out so that people in other areas will feel as though they’re participating in the event. 

John: And those webcasts are not only going to be presented in real time but will also be recorded for later viewing.  

Robin: Absolutely, it’s recorded and then within 24 hours its on a URL using exactly the same link on to the archives so people in different time zones across Canada and around the world can watch any of the previous forums and indeed the one from the night before. 

John: So, Robin, what’s some of the feedback that you’ve received about the forums both from those who attended locally and those who logged in via the internet? 

Robin: Well, John, for example, to quote from some of the people who filled out the evaluation forms we pass out at the end of each forum:  

Personally, it was all really relevant to me and I can begin to put my life back together again.                 

The Q and A was really helpful; the speakers were fantastic and presented in a way I really understood.                 

These meetings always make a difference to me and better enable me  to talk with my doctor.                 

My health and aging were what I had to know about - scary but very good. 

And then web feedback: 

I viewed with my partner, thanks it was great.                 

At last we were able to learn what you people in Toronto have.              

I heard about this from my agency support group; we all watched, thank you.                 

Our service users are really enjoying this valuable opportunity to gain knowledge.                 

John: At the end of the day, this is the kind of feedback all of us who present or write on issues concerning HIV hope to hear. Are there any challenges that remain? 

Robin: There are always challenges, John. They include keeping the topics fresh, finding the right speakers and scheduling them around their availability. Another challenge is finding a person living with HIV who’s comfortable speaking about the topic at hand, because, as I mentioned at the beginning, we always try to have one of the two speakers be a PHA who has knowledge of and/or lived experience of the topic under discussion. 

John: Any final thoughts to share with PositiveLite.com readers, Robin? 

Robin:  My passion - and I came into this work many, many years ago, John, and I run several other programs at ACT besides the community health forums - what drives me is that I’m constantly moved by the strength, the knowledge, the tenacity, the wisdom of people living with HIV. They are who motivate me to do to do the job I do. All I hope is that someone has benefitted in some small way from the work I do. 

John: Well, as an HIVer and as a regular participant at the community health forums, I know that through them I’ve learned a lot about issues that are important to me and, as a result, am better able to manage the challenges of living with HIV. 

Robin: Thank you, John, I appreciate knowing that. 

This interview has been edited and condensed.

ACT’s 2012-2013 series of Community Heath Forums will be held on September 12, October 10, November 14, December 5, January 9, February 13 and March 13. Presentations last two hours, starting at 7:00 pm Eastern Time.

You can log in at the above times to www.actoronto.org/forum to view the forums live. The webcasts will be archived at the same link within 24 hours following each forum.  At that link, you can also find information about the next forum in the series and watch previous forums that have been webcast.

 

 

Aug07

Perfect Summer Pudding

Tuesday, 07 August 2012 Written by // John McCullagh - Publisher Categories // Food, Nutrition and Recipes, Lifestyle, John McCullagh

John McCullagh shares the recipe for a classic English dessert for hot summer evenings.

Perfect Summer Pudding

Grocery stores and farmers’ markets are currently overflowing with currants and berries. So now’s the time to take advantage of this abundance and make yourself one of the easiest and tastiest of all summertime desserts - summer pudding.

Summer pudding originated in Victorian England as a healthier final course to a meal than pastry desserts. It’s also much easier to make than it appears, in fact it’s perfect for beginners in the kitchen. And it will, without doubt, impress your dinner guests. Or your own taste buds, if you’re eating alone. 

Aptly named, summer pudding contains a medley of any soft, summer fruits available - raspberries, blueberries, blackberries, gooseberries, red or blackcurrants and cherries. 

To serve four people, you’ll need: 

Soufflé dish or 900ml (2 US pint) pudding basin

900g (2lb) mixed fruit

175 g (I cup) sugar

About ½ to ¾ loaf of white bread

Cup of whipped cream or Greek yoghurt 

Pick over the fruit, removing the stalks and stones. This should leave 700g (1½ lb) of prepared fruit. Put the sugar and fruit in a thick pan over a very gentle heat and stir carefully from time to time until the fruit is tender and the juice has run. But don’t overcook, or you’ll lose the freshness in the fruit. Cool and sweeten to taste. 

If you’re not using pre-sliced bread, slice the loaf fairly thinly - about 6mm (¼ in.) - and, in either instance, remove the crusts. Line the bottom of the soufflé dish or pudding basin, cutting the bread to fit neatly together. Cut more slices in fingers to fit closely round the dish or basin, leaving no gaps. Fill the dish with fruit, and then it cover closely with more bread. Spoon over the remaining juice to soak the bread and just fill the dish. Reserve any surplus juice. Fit a small plate into the top of the dish, put on a 1.3kg or 1.8kg (3lb or 4lb) weight, and chill in the fridge overnight. 

To unmould, place the serving dish on top of the basin and invert both together quickly. Carefully lift off the basin. (Use a serving dish which will hold the juice when it runs out.) If there are any little white patches of bread, spoon over the reserved juice. 

Serve with cream. Or, if you’re watching your calories and cholesterol, with 0% plain Greek yoghurt. 

Please note: I’ve converted metric measurements to US ones for our American readers. Readers elsewhere should be aware that an American cup is slightly smaller than an imperial one.

 

Jul23

Vito - our hero

Monday, 23 July 2012 Written by // John McCullagh - Publisher Categories // Activism, Arts and Entertainment, Gay Men, Movies, Health, Population Specific , John McCullagh

John McCullagh reviews the documentary film Vito, about the life and legacy of pioneering and charismatic LGBT and AIDS activist and author Vito Russo.

Vito - our hero

The past year has seen the release of a number of remarkable HIV-related documentaries. They include How to Survive a Plague, which guest author Jim Swimm commented on in our pages, and another telling of the story of AIDS activism in the 1980s, United in Anger, A history of ACT UP. Both of these docs were screened at the Toronto LGBT film festival earlier this year, as was Positive Youth, the Canadian-made movie that I reviewed here. More recently released was another Canadian doc, Voices of Positive Women, also reviewed on PositiveLite.com.  

Now we have Vito, documentary filmmaker Jeffrey Schwarz’s story of the charismatic and pioneering gay rights activist, AIDS activist and cultural historian Vito Russo. Born into a loving New York Italian-American Catholic family in 1946, Russo knew as early as age 13 that “gay is good”, even while growing up in an era when homosexuality was universally condemned and most gay men and lesbians were deeply closeted and internally homophobic.

After the Stonewall raid in 1969, which ushered in the modern American gay rights movement, Russo became an influential activist, joining the Gay Activist’s Alliance (GAA) and co-founding the Gay and Lesbian Alliance against Defamation (GLAAD), a watchdog group that monitors the portrayal of queer people in the mainstream media. A life-long movie buff, Russo is, however, best know for his book The Celluloid Closet, an historical survey of how queer characters have been portrayed in film. A movie of the same name was released in 1995. 

As for many others of his generation, Russo’s life was changed forever in the early 1980s, when gay men began to die of AIDS. The HIV diagnosis of his partner Jeffrey Sevcik and his own subsequent diagnosis transformed him from LGBT activist to AIDS activist, to which he devoted his energies until his death from advanced HIV in 1990. Russo’s most significant achievement during these years was his involvement in ACT UP, which he co-founded. This direct action advocacy group fought the Reagan administration and big pharma for access to medical research, experimental anti-retroviral medications and policies to mitigate the loss of health and lives. 

Due to the success of The Celluloid Closet, Russo was an early celebrity of the gay rights movement, hosting his own television show and sought out by the mainstream media as a spokesperson for the LGBT community. As a result, Schwarz has been able to assemble some remarkable video footage and photographs of Russo’s life. These are complemented by some heartfelt yet candid interviews with his brother Charles and cousin Phyllis, as well as with his friend Lily Tomlin and several of his surviving contemporaries, such as Larry Kramer and Armistead Maupin. 

At the beginning of the doc, Russo speaks about why he became an LGBT activist: “I’m doing this for the people who come after me, so those who are 15 or 16 now won’t have to put up with what we did”. Then, towards the end, shortly before his death, he witnesses hundreds of ACT UP members shouting to him in the New York Pride Day parade: “Vito, Vito, Vito, we love you!” At this point, Kramer recounts how he turned to Russo and whispered in his ear, “These are our children”. 

Vito is essential viewing for all of us, not only for the story of a inspiring life, but to remind us of the continuing need for activism. Without activism, the queer and HIV rights that we have achieved will remain under threat - witness the struggles this year of Ontario high school students to form gay-straight alliances and the continuing fight for same-sex marriage in the United States, as well as the concerning state of our response to HIV in Canada in 2012.   

If we don’t keep fighting for our rights, we’ll lose them. 

Vito is being screened this year at LGBT film festivals throughout the world. It is currently being shown on HBO in Canada and the U.S. In Toronto, it is now playing at the Carlton Cinemas.

Vito Russo photo credit: Massimo Consoli. 

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