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Jun22

The start of a new journey

Monday, 22 June 2015 Written by // Guest Authors - Revolving Door Categories // Youth, Newly Diagnosed, International , Living with HIV, Opinion Pieces, Population Specific , Revolving Door, Guest Authors

New Guest writer Posit Bo, a recently diagnosed young man from The Philippines, shares his thoughts about his brand new status which, he says, has given him a second shot at life.

The start of a new journey

Let me tell you my story 

I have recently experienced a day which seemed like the start of my final walk in this lifetime. At that moment, truth and emotion were battling each other, as I tried to convince myself I wasn’t walking towards my death. It was,  though, very apparent that it would be a day of metamorphosis  - from immaturity to responsibility. It was a walk that made me realize the shoddy life choices I had made in the past. So I was remorseful as I walked but knowing what had been done cannot be undone

What made the walk unreal was that I was literally lost as well as emotionally lost, I had been involved in  countless escapades trying to immerse myself in having fun but in doing so had found myself in the most tormented day of my life.

However I picked myself up. My rationale was to save what was there to be saved – life. It was definitely a walk to remember not because it was my final march, it wasn’t even the  kiss of death but it was a walk in search of change.

I finally found what I had been looking for; the few minutes it took seemed like hours  of heart-pounding moments .

Here’s what happened. I went inside and waited for my number to be called, trying all the time to distinguish between reality and illusion. From a long walk to a long wait – it wasn’t fun at all. I wanted to know the truth. It took several minutes before lucky number ten was called. That was the moment of truth, I was about to find out something that had been bothering me for months.

But it wasn’t yet to be.  I still had to go through a thorough and heartfelt conversation with a stranger. That conversation became the most significant I’ve ever had in my entire life - a summary of where I have been, who I have become, and how would I live going forward. All recriminations stopped as I grappled with acceptance of my fate.

You may possibly be asking: (a) what have I been talking about? (b) If it wasn’t death what could have it been?

The big reveal

Now, I am ready to share a secret! It was on the 9th day of February 2015 that I decided to have my HIV test. I was hopeful somehow that this wouldn’t be the last HIV test I’d be having in my life because it might turn out reactive. But the universe wasn’t in my favour; it turned out that the test was reactive and I was diagnosed HIV-positive.

I walked out of that place not with tears but with positive thoughts, guided by what had to be done.

Diagnosis is a horrifying experience but not as bad as the prospect of death. Diagnosis is not an immediate judgment or death sentence, at least for those of us who opt instead to live life in a productive manner.

It has been three months since the diagnosis but there’s nothing that really changed, except for the sense of maturity and dedication I have been putting into every action and decision I have made. HIV -positive is a diagnosis for some but to me it transcends that - a reminder that I have to live my life both well and purposefully. I look at it as my second shot at life. I may have failed in the past but my present condition won’t hamper me from moving to greater heights. It is just a disease and I know I am greater than my disease; I am still in control of my life regardless.

I have always thought that people living with HIV are faceless but we will never be voiceless. I am certain of that because our condition does not only speak only of the individual, it concerns the whole  nation. Many are scared to have themselves tested not because of the possibility of becoming HIV-positive but the risk of being subject to discrimination and stigma. But from what I have experienced in the past three months, the public has become more understanding and liberal, regardless of gender or status. Hence, let’s give hope a chance. LIFE DOES NOT END WITH HIV! Life happens after HIV.

About the author:  “I am a son, a brother, and a friend; I am a student; and I’m in a new battle, a Positive Life. I won't quit coz I am LOVED!  I am from Quezon City, The Philippines, 26 years old, diagnosed 9 February 2015. I am an HIV-positive young man who advocates optimism regardless of status  - because I am Posit Bo"

Follow Posit Bo on his webpage here,  on Facebook here and on twitter @posit689.

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